A Random Writing Post: #1

This may seem like a rather random blog post for me to suddenly decide to write, but the reason behind me doing so is because I was asked to write this by somebody and figured I may as well post it on here while I had it to hand! Hope you enjoy :-)

Looking at my life now compared to what it has been in the past few years I  can really see how much it has changed. I am someone who can sympathize with anyone who is suffering with anxiety. Especially since the illness isn't visible or physical, meaning that most people tend to not take it half as seriously as something which is. To individuals who have a mental health problem, it can be a life threatening situation: nobody truly understands what its like unless they themselves have been through it. 

After coming out of the horrible darkness that anxiety brought me, I've definitely turned the whole experience into a positive somehow. I try to help other people as much as possible, such as by writing blog posts about what issues I had and sharing my own personal story, such as now. 

My story is rather long and complicated to explain but I'll do my best to nevertheless. Anxiety first of all affected my secondary school education within just 3 months of starting, and I cannot express how useless and unworthy I felt by putting my family through all of that. 

So, after that I was educated at home which turned out to be lot better for me than we had first imagined. Unfortunately, since I hadn't overcome my 'fear' of going to school, the anxiety and panic decided to creep into my everyday life in around 2009/10 I believe. It was the worst thing to live with and at the beginning, me nor my family knew what it was that was making me feel so utterly terrible, but we soon found out. As I didn't know what it was to start with and I believed it'd go away, I didn't tell anyone about it for almost a year. As it got worse as the days went on, feeling sick 24 hours a day and not being able to do anything about it, it wasn't too long before I had no choice but to tell somebody. 

After that, things got a bit worse before they got better and I was eventually put on medication. Although now, I am better than ever and living the life that I  want to be which feels great. My confidence is stronger than it ever has been and I'm now at Sixth Form which is something I once questioned my ability to do. It just shows how it honestly does get easier if you seek help. My story is definitely proof of that! I'm about to start a campaign in my local region with the charity YoungMinds, which is aiming to get mental health spoken about in schools. There might be days where I feel a pang of how I used to feel but I just keep going and fight whatever tries to come my way.